no man, no....not now, not today, not in this moment.
shit.
I'm so depressed....
this would look embarrassing tomorrow...but everything that might embarrass you in the future is the most honest in the present.
wallow wallow wallow wallow.....
swallow. *gulp*
'lemon jelly' makes amazing music :) discovered them about an hour ago and im addicted....
with the attacks, a lot of hatred can be seen flying around, statements like-
'every Pakistani should be shot'
'that country should be eliminated by a nuclear bomb!'
'every Pakistani is a terrorist and deserves to die'
think about it....do you really think, that each and every Pakistani, every peace loving person going to work and coming back, every woman sitting at home all day, and every child playing in the streets...wants to hurt you? it's not even possible.
the terrorists, whoever they are, are NOT representatives of their country...we should consider them as people who do not deserve to be embraced by any country, religion, or community....because no self respecting country advocates the killing of innocents in their constitution, similarly no religion advocates the killing of innocents in their holy books...
so why blame a country??
anyone saying 'that country deserves to be blown up' is no better than the terrorists.
terrorists fight against communities and religions and countries like savages. wishing harm on a country puts you in the same boat.
every community, country, or religion has certain bad apples, which manage to get themselves noticed...in this case, the terrorists. but they are NOT representatives of that religion, community or country. they'd be fired if they were employees, but sadly..it is not an organization.
we tend to generalize and judge according to the 'bad apples', look at the bad apples separately, not as part of the community, they don't deserve to be looked at as part of any community....so a few Pakistani's might be terrorists, a few Indians are also terrorists....if you even take 1% of the total population of the country to be terrorists, we have a larger number of them in india :)
so just stop blaming the country man...this is just what the terrorists want. mistakes made under blind rage.
If there is anything the nonconformist hates worse than a conformist, it's another nonconformist who doesn't conform to the prevailing standard of nonconformity.
*bing*
ok...
Wilson: but you don't understand this is the one couple that had their shit together!
Vivian: oh god, nobody has their shit together--
Wilson: they had their shit together!Vivian: --no, we're all just hanging on by a thread trust me, might as well enjoy what you have until that thread breaks that's what i say...
there are no emotions attached to anything....you can't bring despair into anyone Else's life if they're not interested in being affected by you...neither can you make someone happy...
a person is happy, or sad, out of their own accord...there is no 'bad' situation...i choose to not feel bad about the bloody blasts because im not really affected...and i refuse to use them as a conversation starter.
"she/he makes me so happy" and "she/he makes me so sad" are synonymous to "i choose to be petty about every little thing he/she does and to believe that these things make me happy/sad"
it's one big ball of fuzzy...'love' or 'tension' or 'happiness' is never in the air...you feel, what you want to feel...nobody really cares so much about upsetting you...you're upset because you choose to be...
create your illusion...and live in it...like we all do...and it's a good thing.
on a daily basis, all of us humans choose to give ourselves tonnes of more importance about things that aren't that important...
now, on facebook...a provocative picture..or any picture with interesting content, would get comemtned on by people who are interested in commenting on it...and making a conversation out of it...
there's a lot of diplomacy, a lot of hints....etc etc, take this picture for instance:-
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAHAHA!!"
"LOLZ What r u guyz doing??"
"that looks like a crazy party!!!"
now, this picture is from here:-
http://beauties.lumrax.com/~Cutie~97
if you visit the link (WARNING: Viewer discretion is advised, picture in question is surrounded by porn)
you will see that the only comment there is:-
"Fat chicks are always ruining a good pic"
brutal, honest....just what you can expect out of strangers commenting on strangers....pretty interesting change from facebook comments.
now look at this picture:-
first of all, look at the name of the picture....some person decided to coin this as 'showing off' when he/she uploaded the picture...
now, possible facebook comments:-
"lol, looking good there isabelle (just assuming a fake name)"
"congratulations on your wedding :) looks like it was wonderful"
"you look really beautiful in that dress"
now, the actual comments on the actual picture:-
http://beauties.lumrax.com/~Girl_in_wedding_dress_showing_off_legs
"she's ugly"
"shame for the chicos! too bad! :( " <-----(not sure what this guy means, or what dialect this is)
so, go to the lumrax sites sometimes, pretty interesting comments on some stuff :)
oh, look at this:- http://xxx.lumrax.com/~College_dorm_life~6
and the comments on it :) hehe...
lumrax has many sites, 'xxx' and 'beauties' are just two of them, they have topless.lumrax.com, bj.lumrax.com, all self explanatory :)
you flip through channels everyday, looking at a million reality shows, people crooning at the top of their voices, minds, lungs, strung out brains...trying to look 'sad' and 'righteous' when asking you for votes...
a lot of people all over India are DYING to get into these shows at every moment...and what happens when you win? you become famous, that's right, you become famous and popular..start your career "im popular!! now i can charge you loads of money to endorse products and come to dance and sing at your marriages!!"
did you realize, that all this time all you losers were just looking at some humans on a stage, singing 'popular' songs from 'popular' movies to an audience the contents of which just wanna sit around waving their hands from left to right in the studio listenign to these tunes while the show is being filmed...
anyone can sing, bloody anyone!! with sufficient amount of vocal training and practice, what happens here, is that these people sing some of the country's most popular songs, awesomely, on stage...then they're applauded and put on a pedestal for reproducing the song which had been very well recorded in a studio once, professionally, which we can listen to on cd's in our home's at anytime...on stage.
then they'll show these video clips of people saying 'musicis my passion', 'sangeet hi mera imaan hai' etc etc.
no sir, fame is your passion, your 'imaan' is people going crazy about you...your contribution is zero...this song was written by somebody, the music was created by another person, and a nice playback singer sang it for a part in a movie...
what is really required is the promotion of bands, and/or people with original compositions...
i can't think of an interesting way to end this....
all this running after fame pisses me off, i wish some of my favourite indian bands were getting as famous as these bloody wedding band singers...
more than them, these idiots are being promoted...i wish someday they'd ask somebody who has actually done something for the indian music industry (yeah, i count even indian metal/funk/alternative etc bands in the 'indian music industry') would be asked to endorse something..hehe (although i hope they don't sell out to toothpaste or something)
the girl who has some things she wants to do...
but people don't think she wants to do these things...
because at the back of her mind some voice says 'thou shall not want'
so she doesn't 'want'...:she doesn't look like one whod' want to do any of these ridiculous things!!"
nobody looks it anyway...until they do...
that girl would always keep the treasures of her personality hidden, um, masked...by not expressing herself
she'd be a part of the compost heap.
yes, yet another rant....
run along now.
i can't think of anything 'correct' to write, because the thoughts in my head are ridiculous from the general point of view. either ridiculous, or cheesy, none of which i want on my blog. (actually, ridiculous is ok) feelings become cheesy only when they are expressed in the form of speech or written word. but in your head, the cheesy is just another feeling that is just, right...
words have always been inadequate...
to be accepted, anything that can be coined as 'cheesy' should publicly either be said by extremely hot men/women in the form of romantic novels/songs/movie dialogue
OR
privately, (although they like being 'public' about it) by the average 'other half' to the first half ("because we're supposed to! that's the way of the world! listen to me jaanu!")...heehee... (although this too, results in a lot of regretful 'what the hell was i thinking?' moments)
so the best thing to do...is to not speak what you feel at all...it would never amount to anything...whatever you speak, will only do harm. (unless you're talking to naive girls who lurve cheesy things, like yourself, you cunt)
so 'I' will not speak, or try not to...about 'me' and the cheese....wheeeeee!!!!
I'll go with the flow although it's against my sorry ass...grrr...
i hate my life
1) you think about your current personal shit, romance, relationships (or the blissful(?) lack of a 'proper' one), freinds, people...missing them...
2) your future, colleges, jobs, LOCATIONS!!! what's right...am i making a bad decision? is this getting affected by other factors? should i let it? what do i want..
money is not a problem...i could live for less than what I'm living on right now, anyone could actually. luxuries are liabilities.
this is one more of those things that will never leave your brain unless you distract yourselves with the absolute, present...good food, a good conversation, just sitting and spacing out...so I'm gonna....oh it's time for breakfast!!
we'll deal with it when it comes along...and like always, if there's a 'bad decision' involved, it's never the end of the world :)
i'll get by....like our puny human race always has...hehe...now it's time for some good music...
