2 posts tagged “decisions”

1) you think about your current personal shit, romance, relationships (or the blissful(?) lack of a 'proper' one), freinds, people...missing them...

2) your future, colleges, jobs, LOCATIONS!!! what's right...am i making a bad decision? is this getting affected by other factors? should i let it? what do i want..

money is not a problem...i could live for less than what I'm living on right now, anyone could actually. luxuries are liabilities.

this is one more of those things that will never leave your brain unless you distract yourselves with the absolute, present...good food, a good conversation, just sitting and spacing out...so I'm gonna....oh it's time for breakfast!!

we'll deal with it when it comes along...and like always, if there's a 'bad decision' involved, it's never the end of the world :)

i'll get by....like our puny human race always has...hehe...now it's time for some good music...

people always want things in 'common' with their partners, because they don't like to be disagreed with....they want to live with someone with who it's easy to survive because they'll oppose less..

but many relationships, are based, and initiated, by lies...people pretending/trying to like what the other does, just to get in their pants...

(going off topic here...)

because most people just want comfort, comfort they find in the mannerisms of other people who represent images of characters they read about or see in movies and other media...everyone wants little romantic things, flowers, gifts...very frequently spoken 'i love you's, this is what a relationship is based on, constant flow of the same old cheesy communication...stamped 'true love thingies' by mills and boons and such...

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it's all 'games' people play...that's why some people hate their exes, some remain good friends, you hate because you have finally seen through them and their little games they played with you during/at the beginning of your relationship...remember, they were never the only ones playing games, a game can be played by two....
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they want 'charm', and they get it from, and are attracted to those who, openly throw it around...it's the mating ritual...flaunt your mannerisms...but that doesn't mean other people can't be charming....

they don't understand, the 'charm' is there in everybody, even the wife beater, how he'll often go say 'sorry' with a sad face to his wife and she'll be happy again, because that is what is needed, that's why household abuse marriages also last..we call the women idiots for staying with the guy, but what can you do? they've always been so...they fall for the 'charm', they let the 'i love you's melt them...anybody getting love from someone can be charming, in their own way, to them...

some of us don't have the confidence to be charming in general...what can we do? I'd never know how my 'charm' was being taken, i can't flirt, i can't compliment very well without feeling the need to twist it in a humorous way to avoid the awkwardness which wasn't there but i always expect it to be....

some people's 'charm' is seen in the way they do things...the way they treat others...though like i mentioned earlier, that, is a display...like putting yourself out on sale...appearing helpful, appearing sacrificing, appearing to care a lot...it's for the display...sacrifice never made anyone happy...it's all about selfishness...even if you help some stranger on the road, you're doing it to assure them that there are 'good people like YOU in the world' you count yourself as one of the higher, 'good people'. what, you think everyon else is a mass murderer?

if a guy see's another guy 'helping' a girl pick up her books, and thus getting her attention...he won't be happy about the girl having to go through less inconvenience...he'll be cursing his luck that she didn't drop them near him...or that she didn't have a near death experience near him, which he could save her from to show her how 'charming' and 'brave' he is...

even the decision to not go do the publicly accepted 'right' thing is a hard one, but that won't be noticed....and would be considered negative, because they want everyone to follow the same moralistic ideals as everyone else...but what about your personal decision? they'll call you 'selfish', I'd call you selfish...but i can see now....it's different....i admire a person's ability to stick by their decision...it's yours and only yours to change, don't go with the flow...even if there's no harm in it and it can be done for the sake of doing it DON'T! because you've decided...don't do it, for yourself....because in the end it's you who'll be taking all the decisions of your life and you want to be able to make the hard ones. (this sounds like something inspirational, i hate people who write like this, bleh...)

fuck the masses.

and no im not talking about drugs. do them if you're curious, nothign is 'bad', things are just as 'bad' as you believe them to be. would you believe something without proof? go see for yourself...

im talking about day to day decisions, decisions like 'hey everybody is going to meet at that hang out place, i should go too, jsut tag along'
and
'everyone is asking me to come for this movie with them, doesn't look that great, i wouldn't go for it alone, but everyone seems to be going so what the hell'

what 'what the hell'? stop, depending on people....stop, attaching yourself...they don't need you, YOU need them!! see how horrible that sounds?

if they say they need you, it's only because you provide some kind of 'service', i.e:- being there to borrow money from, to make people laugh, to provide bike services, or you're just there to be a 'listener' to some fuck who thinks you understand him/her....

or somethign like that...